Here's the story

Simply put.... never mind it would be impossible to simplify thoughts on life. I just want to explain the story behind the name of my blog.
My grandfather passed away from cancer March 8Th 2005. My life at that time was full. - I had accomplished some things - finished college, got married, bought a house (one that my grandparents had built and lived in for nearly 40 years), and became a mother of two beautiful children... all before I turned 30. I was extremely thankful that Grampa hodie was here to see all of those things. My son, kyle was about to turn 3 and my daughter, vivian, was almost 2 months old when he died. I was glad grampa had gotten a chance to hold them, whisper to them all of his usuals, and leave his mark on their lives too. I was thankful that I didn't miss sharing any of those experiences with him.
During the families grieving process, we contacted a psychic medium. YES I do believe in this process. When you find a good one....it is an experience like no other. - To get the validation that our loved ones who have crossed over still have the ability to "visit" is uplifting and healing. So we orchestrated a "psychic party" within months of his passing and heard many individual messages from him - some seemed small, some more terrific than others - no matter what, it made me a firm believer.The second time I had a reading from the same Medium, My life would forever be changed....
In the hopes of hearing from good ol' gramp, he didn't disappoint. Psychic Jennie told me that I was pregnant that night with my 3rd child! You would think that someone would know if they were pregnant... you would think! I doubted her for quite a while throughout the reading, but she didn't let it go. Thoughts running through my head (but never said out loud) were OMG my house is too small, and, OMG Vivian isn't even 2 yet! - I was beginning to freak out a bit. Then she brought up my grandfather. She said "Hod is here, and he wants me to tell you that there is always ROOM in your HEART for one more". That did it. That is all I needed to hear. a feeling came over me that everything was going to be fine. She went on to tell me that I was always supposed to have 3 children- It was in my plan. Apparently, in my "past Life" I had 2 children and died while giving birth to the 3rd one. Without taking off on the theory of reincarnation and having to do things over again until you get them right, lets just say that I am trying to get it right in "My present life". So this is my life and it is filled with a fantastic family.Kyle is now 6 1/2, Vivian is almost 4 and the the baby, Kerrigan is 1 1/2. It's chaotic,busy,exciting, emotional and young - boy am I glad the psychic didn't tell me I was supposed to have 5 kids.