Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Here's the story

Simply put.... never mind it would be impossible to simplify thoughts on life. I just want to explain the story behind the name of my blog.
My grandfather passed away from cancer March 8Th 2005. My life at that time was full. - I had accomplished some things - finished college, got married, bought a house (one that my grandparents had built and lived in for nearly 40 years), and became a mother of two beautiful children... all before I turned 30. I was extremely thankful that Grampa hodie was here to see all of those things. My son, kyle was about to turn 3 and my daughter, vivian, was almost 2 months old when he died. I was glad grampa had gotten a chance to hold them, whisper to them all of his usuals, and leave his mark on their lives too. I was thankful that I didn't miss sharing any of those experiences with him.
During the families grieving process, we contacted a psychic medium. YES I do believe in this process. When you find a good is an experience like no other. - To get the validation that our loved ones who have crossed over still have the ability to "visit" is uplifting and healing. So we orchestrated a "psychic party" within months of his passing and heard many individual messages from him - some seemed small, some more terrific than others - no matter what, it made me a firm believer.The second time I had a reading from the same Medium, My life would forever be changed....
In the hopes of hearing from good ol' gramp, he didn't disappoint. Psychic Jennie told me that I was pregnant that night with my 3rd child! You would think that someone would know if they were pregnant... you would think! I doubted her for quite a while throughout the reading, but she didn't let it go. Thoughts running through my head (but never said out loud) were OMG my house is too small, and, OMG Vivian isn't even 2 yet! - I was beginning to freak out a bit. Then she brought up my grandfather. She said "Hod is here, and he wants me to tell you that there is always ROOM in your HEART for one more". That did it. That is all I needed to hear. a feeling came over me that everything was going to be fine. She went on to tell me that I was always supposed to have 3 children- It was in my plan. Apparently, in my "past Life" I had 2 children and died while giving birth to the 3rd one. Without taking off on the theory of reincarnation and having to do things over again until you get them right, lets just say that I am trying to get it right in "My present life". So this is my life and it is filled with a fantastic family.Kyle is now 6 1/2, Vivian is almost 4 and the the baby, Kerrigan is 1 1/2. It's chaotic,busy,exciting, emotional and young - boy am I glad the psychic didn't tell me I was supposed to have 5 kids.


Jennifer W said...

Thank you for sharing that! I didn't really know the back story. When we were getting to know each other better, lots of this had happened. It reminds me of one of my favorite songs:

Indigo Girls

galileo's head was on the block
the crime was looking up for truth
and as the bombshells of my daily fears explode
i try to trace them to my youth

and then you had to bring up reincarnation
over a couple of beers the other night
and now i'm serving time for mistakes
made by another in another lifetime

how long till my soul gets it right
can any human being ever reach that kind of light
i call on the resting soul of galileo
king of night vision, king of insight

and then i think about my fear of motion
which i never could explain
some other fool across the ocean years ago
must have crashed his little airplane

how long till my soul gets it right
can any human being ever reach that kind of light
i call on the resting soul of galileo
king of night vision, king of insight

i'm not making a joke, you know me
i take everything so seriously
if we wait for the time till all souls get it right
then at least i know there'll be
no nuclear annihilation
in my lifetime
i'm still not right

i offer thanks to those before me
that's all i've got to say
'cause maybe you squandered big
bucks in your lifetime
now i have to pay

but then again it feels like some sort of inspiration
to let the next life off the hook
but she'll say "look what i had to
overcome from my last life
i think i'll write a book"

how long till my soul gets it right
can any human being ever reach the highest light
except for galileo god rest his soul
(except for the resting soul of galileo)
king of night vision, king of insight

corin said...

I am hoping grampa will be a regular here!

Allison said...

corin... me too

Jen.... I don't know if I have ever heard that song. - I used to like the indigo girls - I will have to check it out with the music. Thanks

Tracey said...

Welcome to the blogging world! It's extremely therapeutic, and a great way to evaluate your own life.

I believe in lots of things. Psychics and reincarnation are always possible, IMHO.

Rebecca Kelsey said...

That sounds really intense! I'm sorry for your loss.

Sadly my grandmother passed away about half a year ago. She had Alzheimer's and in her last days she couldn't remember my name and I had introduced her to my boyfriend several times but every time he came over it was the same thing. I wish she could see how much I've grown as a person since she got sick.

Its great that your grandfather got to meet at least your older children before he left.